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♥Nov 28, 2007
Is all mummy like mine?
I kinda dun understand anymore. She used to help me so much, dote on me. Solve all my trouble and problem. Where the mum i used to have. confused... She's making me no way to go right now. She doesn't want me to work. - reason was to take care of baby. the truth- nobody doing housework and look after mai 2 younger brother. I told her new year is coming. That lot of thing to buy. She say your man will help u. How about rebonding? she know i wanted it so much. she say your man will help u. How about bb's clothes and gold chain? She say your man will help you. Dear wanted to buy the diamond necklace for me. He dun wanna me being look down anymore. Does my man owned a bank? when has my mum gotta so selfish?! She has been giving me so much stress! I found my job. It time for babysitter. She say she gotta one.but the baby sitter is oversea. Ask me to wait. Till now, i dun see anyone. She say my job salary is low.I had an interview of Adm later at 2pm. till now i not even bath or anything. No body's looking after baby! No way for me. I started to my hatred on bb. He the one causes all this. If not for him, i wouldn't be in this stage. Y must i fight for him in the first place. Should have throw him to the father and run. He's father's full of freedom now yet not willing to pay much for the maintenance. How about me? ♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
1:05 PM  ♥Nov 26, 2007
Bring bb go cut hair yesterday. Ha. So cute and funny. His was not scared at all.. keep wanting to know y the aunty keep messing with his hair. But the outcome was cute and gong. Will undate next time. Went to chinatown with dear at night, Dear wanted to upgrade his golden necklace to a thicker wan. 12k! wow. he wanted to buy for new year. Saw a chanel bracelet. with diamond on it de and it 4k plus lahz. dear ask me to try on. It really look so nice. But dear say abit lao qi. Ending dear saw a diamond necklace. It truly sweet and i like it so much. dear promise me, he will get me 1 when it bout new year time. kekez. walk walk walk, saw his friend,....... dun understand y go till where also can see his friend de. chit chat again, talking bout their old old story. But his friend was capable. His only 29 year old and having 4 branch of hp shop and few shop selling accersories. Where he is not educated de hoh! dear told me all this lahz. Keep telling me u doesn't have to be educated to success as i alway look down on maiself.
Reach home. See bb gong gong hair makes me wanna kiss him thousand times. Dear play with his fiesta. Wah lau. he's already lvl10 le, catching up on me liao where i was only lvl15. kekez. LAme lohz the both of us. But improve our gan qin abit bahz. Aleast we gotta another topic to talk to.   ♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
3:32 PM ♥Nov 24, 2007
Went to interview yesterday. hmm the pay was kinda low. 900 before deducting CPF. Still considering whether to work or not. hmm. After deducting CPF it should be left with 700 plus bahz. Minus babysitter 500 i only left with 200plus. Hmm.. but if i dun work i will stay like what i m now. Thay will be calling me on monday to let me know whether they wan me or not. hmm. so fan. But i think i better work aleast it better dan nothing. Wait till everything is stable le dan find a better high pay job bahz.. yup yup
Had lot of fun with mai brother and dear yst. kinda funny as every1 was so scared of cane and dear decided to di xiao them. Played fiesta after that. Dear seem interested in playing as well. Create an account for him. kekez. He was enjoying~~ So cute, so old le still play this kind of game. Bb was truly hoping to go out bah. Play with mai bag. Put his waterbottle, dudu, shoes all in mai bag. And prepare to go shopping. kekez. So cute. like gal gal.  He never cane lahz~   This the video of bb going shopping, it funny~ ♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
1:47 PM ♥Nov 22, 2007
Went to kkh today. i could finally put the biggest stone in mai heart down le. phew.. bb's fine and for the time being he doesn;t need any operation. Docter wants us to go back 6 month later to see whether the lump is growing or not. If it is dan gotta go for operation liao. But for the time being, i can have a peace of mind le. After kkh went to bugis for some walk with mai mum. And have the QQ noodle as i had wanted to eat when was with evelyn that time but was too bloated to take anymore. Hmm. actually it nn different from S98 that time de lahz. It just that the price had goes up nia. Went to bugis for some shopping. Wonder y every little girl loves going out mummy? hee hee. Mummy bought 1 shirt and jeans for me. Had wanted to buy jean so much as i dun even have one ok? Decided to have ine when i lost weight. Told dear bout this and he wanted to but dezen of kit kat for me tonight! hmmm hmmm. Reach home, my whole body aches!~ Got to catch, carry, look after a little monkey is not ez enough especilly my little one. Tend to run about. wah lao
Saw little boy at kkh that makes me can't even forget and was so xin ku. He was bout 1 year plus i think. He was unable to walk, lying on his pram. His body was bloated as well as his face. His face doesn't has any expression. Mai heart aches so much. How could god torture a small little one like him. Saw his mum inject something on his throat and he doesn't react to it. Is he used to it or he dun feel the pain at all. And i hated maiself so much. I tend to be selfish and do i really dispise him. Even me maiself was so confusing. bb wanted to play with him and i grab him and walk to the other side. I was so scared and i really hated maiself so much for doing that where i think i couldn't have done it. hmm hmm P.S: Anyway girl~ thank for being there for me. I know u guyz have been giving much patient on me. And thank for encouraging me.Especially to evelyn. I know u had alway been there for me. When i down like now, u never avoid me and even ask me out. Pay for mai everything when we're out where u r having a little ones to support. Truly thank and sorry. ♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
4:48 PM ♥Nov 21, 2007
Was suppose to go ah ting house today to meet up with val and ariel, but ended up quarrel with him again. told ting that i can't go over le. She reply me that she's expected! it huring seeing this message. I wanna go as well. I truly so tired. Y can't I go out. He alway say I can't keep my promise of reaching home before 9. But i wanted to spend more times with friend, i only went out with mai friend once in a month or maybe not even once. Y can't i stay longer with them. I's so tired of finding reason saying mai mum dun gib mi money, I'm lazy or whatso ever. but i truly wanna go out! Everytime i go out, mai heart could start pumping when it reaches 8pm. Everyone hasn't shop enough and i eventually requested to go home. I know everyone is fed up of me, i try to call him and request for later abit. But the it also end up with quarrel. Where a cheerful day for me turn out to be ......
Told him how i feel, about since he can't pei me, dan y can't i find mai own entertainment. Ended up, i was still the one in fault, telling me before we r together he already told me he can't have much times with me. But i dun wanna hear this. He's alway talking bout REASON and PROMISE. But i want him to understand how i feels internally. I bet he dun, forever. i do not know whether i wanna end this suffering or to continue. ♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
3:10 PM ♥Nov 19, 2007
Help dear dye hair yesterday night. hmm.. till so late dan it done and dear was so so tired. who ask him wan go chu si till so late. Come home still wan dye hair, drag me down also. *planning to slp early yesterday de* The colour's not bad lahz. But the result turn out to be a bit beng.kekez.dear wanted a coffee colour. But i overtime it and it turn out to be Golden white. kekez. Sorry dear. And ya, his face black again but nv really angry of me lahz. kekez. Seeing dear so ai mei makes me wanted to change mai appearance as well. First is mAi bush of grass(mai hair). Told dear i wanted to cut mai hair. But he doesn't wants me to, ask me to tolerate and will be giving me money to rebond when it coming new year time Horray! Wake up 2pm today, found bb sitting beside him playing with tissues box. the tissues inside was torn and fully "occupy" the whole room. Oh mai! wake up pack the room and feed and bath for him.bb was kinda siao shun lahz. Help me fold clothes but create even more mess for me. I wanted to stop him but i m worried that he might think he is doing the wrong thing and so i let him be and wait till he's sleep le and i continue with mai chores.  Dear trying to Catch some sleep Look at this bush of grass ♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
2:43 PM ♥Nov 18, 2007
Got up early today, mai eyes was so painful and swollen. due to yesterday bahz.
dear was still sleeping. Thought he promise to wake up a 8 plus? hur hur, bb wake up soon after. pestering dear again. mummy decided to bring bb out for a walk. yupz! that good aleast i could have a peace of mind for few hours.kekez.dear woke up at 12plus and asked me whether wanna go eat KFC mahz. I try to be attitude telling him i dunno, but in mai heart is YESH. ended up we decide to go jurong to eat the jap food. Make up and kanna scold by dear go jurong also wanna make up. told him mai eyes was swollen he got so anxious thinking was it because of his slap. fuuny dear. He never slap so hard yesterday lahz. I dun feel pain at all lahz. while getting ready, dear ask me y was mai brother shouting in the morning, and i told him cuz i let him play computes yesterday and he wanna today as well. opp* piew. dear face got so black and start his attitude liao. Cuz i promise him not to let them play due to their selfishness*not letting his DS to me*. And so.. face black till jurong, till while we're eating. Dun even talk to me. I got so bek chek and questioned him, izzit so diffcult going out with me. slient.... But thinking after some "warm up", his face not that black liao. Went to watson and but hair dye. dear wanted to dye his hair again. xAi Meix Walk around jurong and saw his friend selling HP there. Dear wanted to buy PSP slim. Guess what, plus this and that. It cost up till 400plus. haiz.. and they both chit chat for few hours. Wanted to scold his friend de. Hey he's snatching mai precious time with dear lehz. hurhur.dear went to cut his hair after that. Wanted to go IMM de but dear gotta chu si at 5pm. So not enough time liao.Rush home and dear slack awhile and off he goes.. wondering when's our outing again liao. ♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
5:42 PM ♥Nov 16, 2007
Yesterday was truly a "tiring day". Woke up early in da morning and found Bb fever gone up. 39.6 degree. Deariee faster wake up, prepare and drive us to polyclinics. Reach there, due to his fever and so we do not need to wait for any que and went on smoothly. Seen the docter, it was due to virus infection. And if his fever doesn't goes down tomorrow, I have to bring him back again.
And yet mai poor bb was kinda active though, while waiting to get his medicine, he was running here and there and even bump onto a nurse. the nurse look at him and say, wah fever still so avtive har? hmm kinda pai sei lahz and saw a baby Chio bu, which i think it about 8-9 month old bahz. He wanted to dash to play with her. But due to his fever, scared later her parents scold us, i ran to him and catch him. Dun wan let him go near to the baby gurl. hue hue. Ended up, he make a fuss there. Screaming and slapping me, just wanna me to let him down. Everyone was looking at me *as if i torture him like that*. Faster take da medicine and cabbed home le. reach home bout 10am, both of us was totally so tired! went to sleep straight away, until deariee called and ask how was his bao bei le and dan i realised it was already 5 pm. BB was still sleeping dan. woke him up and wash, feed for him. He fever goes down le. thank god! kekez... but again his nonsense comes... watched titantic part 2 on channel 5,bb watched together with me as well. think he was curious y all da people was running about bahz. cried. hahaz. lame bo~ especially when rose got to leave jack alone where he was already frozen to dealth that part. So ke lian! And when it comes to that touching part..... bb took his papi boxer and put on his head and run around the house. Haiz. when can i have some peace??aiyoyo. same, wait for dearie to comes back home. play with bb while and went to sleep le.. ♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
5:00 PM ♥Nov 15, 2007
Baby's fever still haven goes down. Even goes up till 38.6 degree at bout 8 pm. and fall a sleep on the sofa. Even i also dun know.
Oh my.. Today totally no mood in playing. stick by my side the whole day. Brew barley for him to drink this moring, hoping he's fever could goes down. Dear drive his lorry back today *usually is drive his scooter de where he can't leave his scooter in his workplace* thank dear so much.in case his fever goes up in the mitnight and he could drive us to hospital. Haiz. Lucky his fever did goes down after a nap and drinking of his milk. And start to be a little active abit le. wipe his body for him and open his children song vcd for him to watch. Dancing and clapping along with the song. Kekez, glad to see him active back. *though i sometimes really hope he could settle down and sit quietly on the sofa*. Both of us wait for dearie back home. dearie bought 2 of his LED light to show me. It was deliver by his friend from china de. As singapore need $35/ LEd light. And dearie can buy $25. And yet he bought 80zhang for his lion dance troupe. Truly heart pain when dearie intended to buy at the 1st place. But if he think it is worth it i will support him. Ghee Hong lion dance troupe was his xin xue mahz. hmm.. He on the light for us to see. Bb was excited. Kept calling his papi and pointed at the lights. So cute and sweet. *but y din he call mi?!!!* hur hur. And finally make him to sleep, as u know lahz fever syrupe from polyclinics won't makes u sleepy de. kekez. Hope he couuld be truly fine the very next moring he wakes up. praying..    ♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
1:08 AM ♥Nov 13, 2007
Poor bb, having fever. Sai nai to me the whole day and finally makes him sleep le. so tired. Thought that baby sick is alwayz very sleepy de. But he's not climb here and there. And me! catch him here and there. Like sick le even more active like that.
Yesterday fan me the whole night. doesn't wants to sleep in his play pan. think he wants to sleep iwth his papi and mami bahz. kekez. carry him out and sleep together with us. End up, disturbing his papi. He just doesn't wants to let his papi sleep. Slap him to wake him up. Lucky dearie got nai xin. wake up in the middle of night and play with him. Finally got to catch some sleep le.how to know he wake up early in the moring 7am. haiz. poor mami got to wake up. feed him, change for him. send dearie to work and both of us sleep like pig till 2pm! tired.... sick le still climb here n there:  ♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
4:59 PM ♥Nov 11, 2007
Another "off" day of me today, but neve go out lahz. hmmm.. dearie had a half day off today. Going off to work at 3.30 later. Kez, we will suppose the have our breakfast at mac today de. But both of us was kinda tired as we watch Dvd Xiong di till 4 plus in the morning. Actually I got wake up de, this morning. Wake him dan ask me give him sleep a little more. Nothing to do dan go back sleep with him liao. Wake up already 12 plus liao! Zhao zhi dao take money from his wallet dan ask them to deliver even more better. But that could be kinda meaningless liao wor. Nvm, Next time i wake up at 6 am and wake him up.. kekez. devilish miee. nan de off day also wan like that torture ppl.
BB wake up at 12 plus with us as well. Lazy Bum! But he did wake up at 3am in da moring as well. Pei us watch xiong di together. keke. Ending me and dearie got so tired and went to sleep and leaving down there gon gon. But he's a good entertainer lahz. Could entertain himself and sleep when he's tired.(only to sometimes). So... He's really entertain himself by pushing his play pan around. And I was too tired to bother to push the play pan back supporting the side of our mattress so that none of us will fall onto the floor. " I bet no body will expect bb". Bb went to sleep after messing stuff of our room. And I am really too tired to stop him. He went sleep beside me...... suddenly.... GONG! i heard crying less dan 5 sec Before I could open mai eyes.... He climb back to me and sleep...... haha. The action of his ish totally beri funny. Pain and yet tired. kekez. Really think having this entertainer aka joker truly lighten up mai day! Even in da middle of the night....But all because of lazy mama lahz. if push back the play pan dan that couldn't happen..... Congrat to evelyn! Offically Mrs. Chua Today ♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
2:30 PM ♥Nov 10, 2007
Finally finish editing mai blog skin liao. hahaz. previous de ish really ugly lahz. Though i like poka dotz but still gotta give up though. Like pink so much! kez. Din really have the time to update as bb ish really to caught mai attention by destroying this computer, maybe it because i spend too much time on com liao le.
Time to do mai duty as a mummy liao, put all the skill that i have learn watching child of our times+ during pregnancy+ on bb. but the result was ...... Teaches him to read ABC, and he ran off, catch him back and continue and yet he gave me a slap. buai tahan. I change to reading story book instead. Last time he would ignore me playing with his toy but aleast he could hear it, but now! He snatch the book away from me and sit on it. I really dun know what he wantz. Beat him up badly, cries calling for mama. Heart aches seeing him like this worhz. So I saiyang him and wipes away his tears. the next minutes he gave him another slap.............!!! Saw him messing with mai brother stuff again. Shout at him, he gave me a innocent look and continue. Beat him up again. This time he's more clever, he ru to sai nai my mum, asking mai mum to protect him. wah kao. I really dun know how to teach him. It really hard. Yesterday was the funniest, makes me angry yet make me laugh. He throw mai hp on the floor and run away. I chase him and found him hiding behind the sofa. He peep at me and saw me looking at me. Guess what? He gave me his sweetest and innocent smile. It like asking me to forgive him. hmm.. really cute, can't forget that smile. hmmm. wondering if he's mai son or not. I m stupid and blur mahz, Mai son should be the same like me, I thought. haha. looking babysitter, as I found one job le but can't find baby sitter at all. And i decided to take care of him until next year for him to go childcare. Found it so hard to be separate away from him. And I think babysitter could torture him bahz and lock him inside a cage cuz he's like a monkey climbing and running here and there. kekez. ai yo like that say may own son. kekez. can't loh soh much liao.  Funny look  Pai pai guanyin  His story book  loves his gon gon face ♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
6:05 PM ♥Nov 7, 2007
So tired today.. And so sway! Wake up and found out itz already 2 plus in the afternoon le. OMG. Lucky mama help me look after him the whole afternoon. totally so tired. hmmm.
Help bb bath and found out that there's a lump on his neck. Scare the hell out of me. Dash to bath and bring him to the private clinic nearby. BB still gotta the mood to play in the clinic. haiz.. Wait for nearly half an hour and finally it our turn. Docter examine his lump serously and my heart pumping like hell. Docter say the lump neither grow on his bones or his meat but it on his Vein. OMG. Needed operation if it still continue to grow. Poor bb and useless mummy. Tearz almost come out. Heart sho pain. He know nothing all. Though it not really dangerous but how could a small bb like him take it? Poor Poor boy. Called dearie and report to him, dearie an wei me not to worry so much, think he also heart pain bahz. Went to sheng siong to but his diapers and some other stuff, huggies is out of stock. No choice but mummy poko but ex worhz. Huggies is $18 for 60 pic and mamy poko is $15 for 38 pic. big difference hoh!!! Went home, bb is active as ever. heart so pain. do my household and bu xiao xin broke my mum's most precious de decoration!!! glasses was all over the floor. Barefoot to get the dustband and cut my leg!! sway mahz??!!! Arrgh!!! Ask my brother to keep fom my mum until a very fine day. hoping this very day won't come!! Pray to god.. hur hur... sianzz.. waiting for dear dear to come back as he fetch his friend home. It a guy friend of his!! kekez... go to go feed my poor bb le.. ♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
12:08 AM ♥Nov 5, 2007
Yesterday went out daddy and mummy as they're buying dining table and mummy wanted to sign up for new hp. Went to tiong bahru plaza and kenneth fron shan yi. He kept calling me ah ling jie but i thought he's calling other until he stand infront of me and shout SIling!!!kekez.. Grow up le that little boy and I lao le. kekezzz
Went to watson and look for bio essence bust firming cream as i was using that al the while and it not bad though.But watson is not taking that product anymore!! arrgh. Gotta no choice but to chose other brand and this brand was not a bad want. It do have slimming and nipple cream but not cheap either. But for the sake of my breast! I have to waste some of my saving.  The wan that i bought yesterday. HAPPY Girl Natural Nipple Cream  wanted to buy this as well. Saw this maybelline foundation it cost only 39,90 wanted it so much but it out of my buget le.hmmm. maybe next month or wat bahz.. went KFC with mummy they all, eat till so full, there goes my diet plan le. Went to court after that, BB tired till sleep le so I have to carry him while help mummy look for her dining table. Saw clearence sale, and saw clock for only 10 dallor for 3 in COURTS! - which i thought it was clock lahz. Funniest was I still ask the cashier is it exchangable if it spoil?? She gave me a funny look and say within 7 dayz. Ending when i try to open it up a see, and found out it awas only deceration. hur hur. MAke it a toy for bb bahz since he like it so much. kekez. And went to eat nasi lemak after that I was already so full ler!!! dan ta bao for dearie also. Dearie come back very early yesterday due to the mattress bahz i think. kekez. help mummy burn her song and make bb to sleep. Help dearie check his mail and went to sleep ler. ♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
1:59 PM ♥Nov 4, 2007
Today so many thing gotta do. Meet up with evelyb in Auditionsea, Both of us was so lousy. kez..but we're noobs! can't be blame. dearie gave ne a surpise by ordering a mattress yesterday and will be delivered today. We had wanted to buy a mattress long ago as both of us had been squeezing onto a single bad and half of body is alwat on the floor.==partly my size lahz== dearie alway ask me to squeeze in abit so that i wun be sleeping in the floor. But I wanna dearie to sleep comfortsbly as he gotta work lehz abd I no need.
Really loves dearie's thoughtful alot. knowing I have back probkem, he chose a mattress which can lessen my backaches, Just love him so much.   Truly very happy that he bought this mattress, but heart pain him, dearie had spend a thousand to two just to spend on me nia... I wanted to buy it only after new year so I can help to pay half of it.. kekez.. And the happiest ish bb bahz.. when the mattress just arrived, he was the first to hop on it and jump. kekez.. wash our new badsheet, didn't know laying of bedsheet could be so tiring-mummy alway the one who do for miee- first u have to put comforter and dan protector and lastly our new bedsheet.finally! but it took miee 1/2 hrz to have it done as bb keep on ka jiao. kekez.. hoping tonight could be the sweetest night for the three of us. ♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
12:42 AM ♥Nov 2, 2007
Seeing my boi growing up le. Learn to walk, learn to know that mummy's angry, learn to sing along with the tv. alota thing passing through my mind. From pregnancy to birth to taking care of him. It hard to pass by. but i did. Having separated with my husband. I thought I could never ever done it. No matter how he treated miee. From birth not even full month, I bring hao back home. leaving my husband. His family scolded miee. My husband had affair outside, no body helpingi me expect for my parentz. I can't bring myself to be single mum. I wanted to lives in fairy tales. Prince and princess forever together.Whenever hao cries, I cries not knowing what to do.I slap him. kick him wher my anger comes, when I think of how my husband treated. He was only 3 month by. Throw him with my mum or friendz not wanting to see him. Go around playing with friends. That my way of avoiding.
Somehow got to know my current bf, we will not serious totally, jus having fun outside. He doesn't wan to settle down, I doesn't wan to face the reality. I fallen in love with him and he fallen in love with me. no matter what he is alway your son, he already lose a father. He needs mummy's love. that what my bf told me. he buy milk powder every month for hao knowing i m unable to. carry hao by his side. Bring hao to see his god sister. every 1 thought that was his son. And my hopes comes back. A complete family. I alway wanted. making me living like a tai tai lessen my burden. enjoy my lifes so much. hao already 1 yrz plus le. see him growing occupied my lifes, he is my leisure, my happiness, my everything. loves him so much.. My Loves Ones   ♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
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